Happy 18th Birthday Nicole

Nicole Marie McCarty
March 20, 1989 ~ March 22, 2005

My dear, sweet Nicole,
On March 20, it will be 18 years since you came into this world. How time flies! I remember that day like it was yesterday. I was proud and afraid at the same time. You had all of us worried that day, but finally there you were healthy and beautiful! When the nurse handed you to me for your first bath I felt like a scared little kid not sure what I was supposed to do. Then you looked at me with those beautiful coal dark eyes and I knew right then and there that I was holding the most special thing I would ever touch in my life. I wish I could go back to that day and do these past years over again.

My baby is 18 years old already! 

This year, the school year, was supposed to be the best for you. This year you were to take fun classes, visit colleges to decide where you would go, would it have been TSU- Tennessee State University, NCSU-North Carolina State University, WVU-West Virginia University or somewhere else? You were to decide what you were going to be, the Pediatrician that you always talked about, a lawyer so you could help people, or would it have been something else? Of course, I didn’t care because I knew you would have blossomed in whatever you decided to do or be.

 There are so many milestones that we will not share.

I miss you so much Cole. I miss your smile, it is so beautiful. I miss your voice, especially when you would say "Love You Poppie" as you were about to go to bed and especially that morning as I left for work. I miss the way you leaned against me to let me know that you were there. I miss your kisses and warm hugs. I miss hearing "love ya, later bye" and "nigh night sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite, love ya, later". I miss us singing in the car.

I miss you.

I know Grandma and both of your Grandpa’s were there to meet you the day you passed, and I am glad of that. I also know you will try and build that big white house that I told you I was going build when I got there ahead of you. Sorry it didn’t work out that way. I can just imagine the stories you are hearing about me! I am comforted knowing that you are in a place where Angels, like you, are again free to help others.  I can just imagine you constantly moving watching over all the members of your family and all your friends.

Everyone misses you so much.

I didn't get to share this 18th birthday with you, but I cherish the 16 years I did share with you. Even knowing the outcome, I would still take the 16 years. In those 16 years, you touched so many lives and helped so many people.

  Especially me.

I hope you have a big birthday party in heaven with all the angels and of course with Jesus. Have fun, and catch the balloons I will send up to you.
Happy birthday Nicole Marie!
I love you very much
Dad

 

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